almost there

the tickets are ready. shirts are ironed and packed. sleepless night. a parallel path takes another turn and blocks everything. frustration. a black cloud on top of my head and I can't shake it away.
morning. heading to the office. confession. decision. cancellation. a window of opportunities of a life time gets shut down so that ...
heading back. confused. ashamed. ready. knowing it is the right thing. want to breakdown. breaking down. supporting parents. loving wife. turmoil.
waking up. guess what? the sun is shining. the world didn't stop. there are terrible things than that. I can always say 'it is just a job' while I know it isn't :) still - priorities are priorities. and seriously, I think the decision is right.
back to square one. smarter. ? . realistic. ? . confident. ? .